Biggest Loser Motivation Day # 40

Goal Weight: 154 lbs
Days Left: 58
Lbs Lost: 1.2
Lbs to Go: 23.8
Current Weight: 177.8


So I made it to 9 and stopped. I wasn't losing weight and realized it was because I shot my metabolism by not drinking enough of that drink. So I ate and have been. I stopped at 175.4 on day 9 and have gained back 2 lbs but I still haven't gone to the bathrooms since Is started eating so constipation is occurring here and I'm hoping the weight will drop back down once I do.. Ah,, gross wishful thinking!

I started South Beach Diet today and will be attending the gym starting Monday as well. I only have 2 months left to get off these pounds and I'm back to the beginning.

Biggest Loser Motivation Day #36

Goal Weight: 154 lbs
Days Left: 62
Lbs Lost: 3.0
Lbs to Go: 22
Current Weight: 174.6

My body officially hates me! So this morning you may have noticed that my weight loss went from 4.4 from 36 days ago to 3lbs. What is going on?? Somehow I gained 1.5lbs since yesterday. Never have I heard of anyone gaining on this cleanse. I've done it before. This just doesn't happen. How could this be? Could I ask any more questions about it! Okay so time to fess up. Have I cheated by eating any meals.. no! Today I did eat another spoonful of peanut butter and I must confess that I'm only drinking about 12-14oz of that lemon drink every day. I think I'm tired of it already. I didn't even want to do the salt flush so basically its gotten to the point of I'm just not eating.

We took my Min Pin to the "No more homeless Pets in Utah" up in Orem to have her spayed. Poor thing clung to me when they went to take her away! And when we picked her up it was so sad! I just wanted her to know everything was alright. She has been sleeping upstairs all day and Nala has been acting like a big 'sis' whining and stairing up at the stairs knowing Minnie is up there but she isn't sure what is wrong with her. She keeps trying to get me to go up there with her to check on her. And people say Dogs are just Animals! BAH!!!! That's baloney. They know something is going on. She is so adorable. Both of them are.

Anyway, aside from that little off track thought. When we were driving home from picking Minnie up I looked down and noticed my fingers were swollen. So Jeff and I came to the conclusion that since I haven't been drinking the drink and probably haven't had the water intake I need, I'm retaining water.. which I would think was weird since I flush out a bunch but considering the amount of salt I intake for the flush, its likely that I am since I haven't been in-taking enough fluids!

So maybe my weight gain for this day is nothing. I must tell you that was my downfall today. Not seeing weight come off but rather on made me lose my patience with this drink (not to mention I've been crabby all day from it) and I took a spoon of peanut butter. But today was the end of day #8 and I finished it. So only two left. I have decided not to go hang out at my brother-in-laws. Jeff can go and play video games. I'll just be ignored the whole day anyway. So I am hanging out at home watching Minnie tomorrow. She needs someone looking out for her anyway. This way I am away from the temptation of going to Zupas. So only two days left! So excited!

Biggest Loser Motivation Day #35

Goal Weight: 154 lbs

Days Left: 63

Lbs Lost: 4.4

Lbs to Go: 20.6

Current Weight: 174.6

Oh Sweet Victory!!! I am so relieved. Today will be my 7th day and I can't believe it but I lost almost 3lbs since yesterday! I was so beyond happy today nothing could wipe the smile and joy from my face! I am so happy to know I only have 3 more days left!

But I have bad news for me and am undecided as to what to do. Tuesday we are headed over to my brother-in-laws to hang out and play games with them all day. They want to go to Zupas which is one of my all time favorite places ever to eat and what in the world am I going to do! Sit there and watch them eat. I already had to do that yesterday while my brother ate Cafe Rio! I dont' think I am going to get off on Tuesday with them. If I did it would just be for the soup.. so at least its liquid.. but it will depend how close I am to having my weight goal accomplished. I want to lose 15lbs on this lemon cleanse and right now I am only at 8lbs.

Wish me luck and give me some feedback as to what you think I should do about Wednesday which is day 9. SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!

Biggest Loser Motivation Day # 34

Goal Weight: 154 lbs

Days Left: 64

Lbs Lost: 1.6

Lbs to Go: 23.4

Current Weight: 177.4

Should I be happy with my current weight? No, I'm not. Yesterday I didn't lose any weight and expected at least a 2 lb drop today and guess what? That didn't happen. I only dropped 0.8 lbs. How fare is that? What exactly is going on with my body. I didn't eat anything for 5 days and I can't remember how this happened last time I completed the cleanse but I know I dropped a full 15 lbs on it. So what is happening here??? I'm so unmotivated but today was day 6 so I just had to keep going.

I invited my brother over today since I only had to work 2.5 hours today. Truthfully, its so cold out that I'm just not motivated to do things around the house for whatever reason. And secondly, I wanted to play Mario Bros to keep me from thinking about food. And the last reason was that I needed someone in the house because I don't trust myself to not raid the pantry with small bites of food here and there. Its so hard!

I don't think I will ever do this cleanse again. I just love food too much for this! And Jeff and I want to go out to eat together and we can't because I'm on this stupid thing. So I'll stick to South Beach when I am dieting. At least I can eat although I'm restricted. So I truly hope more weight will come off tomorrow morning which happens to be my day 7.

Biggest Loser Motivation Day # 33

Goal Weight: 154 lbs

Days Left 65

Lbs Lost: 0.8

Lbs to Go: 24.2

Current Weight: 178.2

I was really disappointed knowing when I stepped on the scale today that I hadn't lost any weight. I mean come on... I haven't' eaten anything in 4 days. What is that about? But I know that tomorrow I will more than likely lose something. I just hope it starts coming off a whole bunch and really quickly. I'm waiting for day 7 to occur when the real weight loss occurs. Today has been okay. I haven't really been too hungry. The day is almost over and I still have 14oz left to drink in my 32oz cup. I am definitely not drinking the acquired amount but I seem to be doing okay.

I had a weak moment at 4pm while I was on lunch and reading Fablehaven #3. The chapter started talking about pancakes and the whole time these characters were talking there were non-stop references to these pancakes and I felt myself not able to think of anything but that.. To top it off... I DON'T even like Pancakes! Then I got mad at the character Kendra because the next morning after exhausting herself from near-death experiences she declined even having breakfast! Stupid girl! Don't you know there are people like me who are starving here! Eat the DAMN food! Okay so I was a little cranky but I have an excuse.

I am so pissed at myself right now. I CHEATED! I can't believe I did this! I had the worse day ever at work and I was so irritated with the last 1 hour of cardmembers that I was on edge. I got home and couldn't handle it. So I opened the pantry door and grabbed a jar of peanut butter. Then I scraped the side so I barely had any on my finger and tasted it! Well it was so good that I said outloud to myself... "oh forget it, give me a spoon!" and thats when I did it.. I took a large teaspoon of peanut butter and savored every minute of it as though it was the most delicious thing on earth which of course at the time it was! And probably still is right now.

So I confided in my husband and he told me I had to blog it or I wasn't being honest with myself to which I replied that I thought if I confided in him I was at least telling someone. But that wasn't good enough so here I am telling the rest of the world that I cheated! Jeni told me I wouldn't make it and I didn't but I am going to continue the next 5 days and stay on it! I mean it was only a spoonful so I will flush it out tomorrow morning and be on my way!

Can I just say that Jamie's last day is today. She has a big event tomorrow so she is going off and it doesn't help to know I'm on it alone. Jeff thinks he can easily go without eating for 10 days! Bah! I've only known 2 men that have ever been able to complete this and one of them was my brother. I love food and I can't wait to complete this thing so I hope no one thinks the worst of me for having a small cheat but I hope that I can still get this weight off!

Biggest Loser Motivation Day #32

Goal Weight: 154 lbs

Days Left: 66

Lbs Lost: 0.8

Lbs to Go: 24.2

Current Weight: 178.2

Yesterday was a complete nightmare on this cleanse. It was the first time that I really had a hard time sticking to the cleanse. I knew that day # 3 was the hardest but this was ridiculous! I was fine most of the morning. Jeff and I went out to Provo and picked up a dresser his parents left behind. We got home at 4pm so I didn't take a nap knowing I had to work the next morning. This might have been the cause of the nightmare.

Around 6pm Jeff (who knows how to make some box dinners, which I don't really keep a whole stock of but have a few) Well Jeff pretends he doesn't know so I had to go in and help him make a box of mac and cheese. The smell and look of that was almost too much. I grabbed the spoon and licked the sauce off. I know its horrible! I sort of cheated! I mean there wasn't much on the spoon but more than a small taste! It dissolved instantly but it was so good. I tried stealing even one noodle from Jeff but to no avail. He kept me away and I love him for it!

So the rest of the night was okay. I didn't falter and stayed strong though I didn't want to. This morning hasn't been too bad. I am at work and actually feeling really good. People are asking if I am feeling low on energy but I am not. I feel really good. I'm averaging a little more than 1 pound a day which is good for the first few days. I know more will continue to drop off. The scale is definitely a motivator to keep me going strong! So here is to a 4th day down and only 6 more left!

Biggest Loser Motivation Day #31

Goal Weight: 154lbs

Days Left: 67

Lbs Lost: 0

Lbs to Go: 25

Current Weight: 179

Can you believe it?!?! I am actually at the weight I started at nearly 31 days ago! Its amazing. I had to gain weight and then go on this lemon cleanse to get back to the starting part. The irony! But at least I'm out of the 180's. I couldn't be happier about that! Now today is day 3 and I cant' believe I have made it this far already. I am so relieved to know that I am at the hump of the diet meaning that they say day 3 is always the hardest. So if I can make it today I can definitely make it the whole 10. I know I can do this! I have tricks up my sleeve left and right to ensure it.

Meaning, that when I wake up at 8am, I don't drink my salt drink right away to flush the system. I don't have to go to work and that's why it allows me to do this. I prolong it a few hours until I really start to feel hungry and like my body needs some nutrients. So around 10:30 I begin the salt drink which clearly bloats you for an hour until you begin the next hour of flushing it out. Well that brings me to about noon. So hurray first four hours down and only 20 more to go. Next I begin sipping on the drink throughout the day. I'm not drinking the 96oz I'm clearly supposed to.. more like only 32oz but I'm sure when my routine is messed up by going to work tomorrow, I probably will.

I generally get tired (probably from lack of food) around 3 or so. I head up to bed an hour later at 4pm and sleep for the next hour or two. Wake up and of course feel drowsy that I'm not all that hungry... so now 10 hours down and 14 more to go.. However these are the hardest hours. Around 7pm I am extremely hungry. For some reason, the night just does that to people.. and I get a little cranky. Day #1 I talked my husband into playing Super Mario Bros on the Wii which completely kept my mind off food at all and rather on the fact that we couldn't beat World 9 level 1. Yesterday I was so cranky (especially because our Internet wasn't working and I couldn't watch my shows) That's always a big no no for me... that well I knew I had to get out or something because I was so close to heading to the kitchen for just a spoonful of peanut butter! Jeff wouldn't go with me so I headed out on my own and went to see the movie, "Blind Side". A+++++ in my opinion. Such a great movie. I sipped on my lemon drink during the movie but hardly felt any hunger as I was so engrossed in the movie! Cried about a hundred times and then came home. Read a bit and headed to bed with 9 hours to spare completing the full 24 hour cycle.

So today will most likely be followed with the same routine. I only hope I can live through a full 10.5 hours of work tomorrow! At least Jamie will be there to help support me. I feel bad I wasn't at work to help support her. At least her husband is doing it too. That should help at home unlike mine who tries to talk me into eating fruit because its healthy.. Right but I'm not supposed to eat anything!

So here is to losing more weight. I have 67 more days to lose 25lbs. I only hope to get off at least another 13 or so on this cleanse and hopefully that will be a good start. Especially if I follow it with the South Beach diet! Wish me luck!

Biggest Loser Motivation Day #30

Goal Weight: 154 lbs

Days Left: 68

Lbs Lost: +1.4

Lbs to Go: 26.4

Current Weight: 180.4

I have discovered that the true weak moments in this lemon cleanse diet is in the evenings. The mornings you are full of more energy and there are things to do but at night you want to relax and have put up a full day's fight that you are much weaker to the temptation. I woke up this morning and feel fine. I'm really not any more hungry than on other days when I wake up. In fact, today I feel proud that I made it through yesterday without cheating even once!!! It seems to give me that added confidence to know that I CAN do this.

I had so many thoughts yesterday that I would still lose weight even if I took only one tablespoon of peanut butter but I didn't knowing that if I did it then I would do it everyday and probably more than I should. SO I am so proud to say I didn't! I must admit that I enjoy knowing every morning that I am being flushed out of things which I haven't even eaten. It makes me feel that much lighter.

So here is to me becoming thinner with each day! I CAN DO THIS!!!

Biggest Loser Motivation Day #29

Goal Weight: 154 lbs

Days Left: 69

Lbs Lost: +3.6

Lbs to Go: 28.6

Current Weight: 182.6

Well I can't believe I can not find the continuance to get my butt up on a regular basis and work out. My dear sister, Jeni reminded me when I used to get up and work out at 4am on regular basis. Yes I remember those golden years! How I miss them. I'm sure I will get back there. Somehow I also find it easier when you are already thin. Its like you are mentally feeling better so its easier to go than to think lazily.

Well I had it. Yesterday I got on the scale and was so depressed that I was excited although extremely nervous knowing that I was to begin this lemon cleanse this morning. Day #1 of my lemon cleanse hasn't been bad at all to be honest. I did wake up thinking how nice it would be to have a hot turkey bacon and egg breakfast with Jeff. I remember telling him that if I knew Jamie wasn't out there starting it today too that I probably never would. How weak is that? I know!!!

But once I salt flushed (I think you just get more used to the more you do it) I knew I was ready to be on this cleanse. Mostly because after the 4.5 trips I made to the bathroom my stomach already felt less bloated than it has when I wake up in the morning. It was amazing to feel that I already felt lighter. Now this might be a mental thing of mine but either way it felt great!

I made my drink and sipped on it. Then feeling a little sluggish about 1:30 I told myself what better way to not think about eating than to sleep! I remember when I was 15 and wanted to be really thin with no food blotation for the homecoming dance so I forced myself to sleep for about 14 hours refusing to get out of bed until 3 in the afternoon so I wouldn't have time to eat anything before slipping into my dress. ha ha.. so I went up and took a nap until about 5pm. I woke up thinking of food and how nice it would feel to eat something but not really wanting to because I was "hungry" but because I emotionally wanted to eat.

I am sure that as I wake up the next morning and step on the scale I will be lighter than today and will just add to my continued motivation of becoming thinner. Jeff has been a butt all day to me talking about how much he can't wait to eat his delicious meal! :) He thinks he is sooo funny!

Well here is to me and Jamie. Stay strong!

Biggest Loser Motivation Day #24

Goal Weight: 154lbs
Days Left: 73
Lbs Lost: +3.2
Lbs to Go: 28.2
Current Weight: 182

Well the adversary (we shall call him- Fat Shadow Man) has been haunting me for a week now. Did I get my butt to the gym the next morning. Um... sadly, no! Like I would do that! Mary- thanks for the previous comment.. I know I need to do it. New motivation.. Sign up for another marathon. Salt lake Half marathon - here I come.. More importantly - OGDEN marathon! I'm ready to finally make a time that is less than 5 hours. You will be my 7th marathon and Salt Lake will be my 2nd Half Marathon! Here I come!

So I decided last night that I was going to begin the South Beach Diet today. I was busy at 9:30pm making my lunch and snacks for this when I realized... I only have HALF the ingredients I needed... well Mr Fat Shadow Man.. you won again! I didn't start the diet today which means that I am eating left overs... but have no fear everyone. I brought homemade soup and oranges for snacks... so I did okay. I guess.

This morning I woke up with Jeff at 6:30 knowing I needed to be at the gym in less than 15 minutes but my body was so sore.. I attempted snowboarding the previous day and let me tell you I hurt everywhere I thought I couldn't. That definitely was a workout of its own.. and just to confirm.. I CAN'T snowboard. I tried and I failed miserably. So did I make it to the gym.. of course not!

But today is a new day and I have new motivations. Two marathons to train for by April/May and DUN DUN DUN.. my dear friend Jamie is going to go on the lemon cleanse with me starting on Monday. So 15 days from Monday I will be 15 lbs lighter! Oh Goodness I can taste it! THANK YOU JAMIE! I always do so much better with others to help me out.

I remember when it was 4-5 of us girls when I worked at Basic all laboring together with different diets and workout routines and I never wanted to be the one who couldn't so I kept going and we all motivated each other. I needed this to happen and Jamie has become my savior!!! I love you Jamie!

So onto a new day and by the way, my New Year's Resolution is not to lose weight but to make sure my husband thinks I'm beautiful and sexy again!!! So here is to another New Year and to the love of my life, Jeffrey!