True vs Fake - Just Some Thoughts

How can one tell if something is real or fake? When does life stop being a game of poker full of bluffs and deceitful faces and become something real and tangible? Why is that we seem to drag things out just to hold onto something in the hopes that it will eventually turn out the way we want? It's too bad we know in the back of our hearts that eventually one day we will have to let go. The tangible "dream" will eventually dissolve. It's only a matter of time before you become tired of the bluffs and eventually ask the faux pas to reveal its true form. When it finally does you find yourself relieved yet full of despair as that small hope you were clinging to has finally revealed its true nature and not to your liking. Why do we hold on to this so obvious faux pas? Is it because we find ourselves believing that if we just hold on long enough things might turn out the way we want? Can it be that we love the small piece that we have and for those brief moments it means more than all the agonizing moments away from it? I only know that I can no longer withstand the complete draining feeling that comes from finding out the truth too late. The moments after the truth is revealed when you find that though you have given too much of yourself and sacrificed everything that meant something to you has all been for nothing is too much to bear. A realization has come to me this past week and I now realize that my big heart will no longer be able to open up for fear that one more fake bluff may be dealt in this endless game of poker. I can't afford to lose anymore. Too many tears have been shed for the realization that one more faux pas has taken advantage of me and treated me as though I am a never-ending facet of water to quench their thirst and then toss me out when I am no longer needed. Just once I ask to be given something that is real, tangible, and full of truth. Just once…